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I like this guy. He USED to like me. But I broke his heart. And I don’t even know why the hell I did. He was THE BEST thing to ever happen to me. I’m trying soooo hard to move on. But we all know that it’s nearly impossible to get over first love. He was my first love, my first kiss, my first REAL boyfriend. We might have only lasted 5 1/2 months, but I still really like him. But just recently, last Friday (3 days ago) his friend came over to the table I was sitting at in math, & showed my best friend (also a friend of his) a picture that he had drawn. I didn’t really care to see it. But I looked up. I saw the back… It was a comic strip thing. The title was “(His name) + ‘A’ ♥”. Hearts written EVERYWHERE on the page. I didn’t really get to read it. But I wanted to just go cry silently in the bathroom. The teacher took it up & threw it away. I’m glad she did. My friends who talk to him are trying to find out who it is. But it doesn’t even matter anymore. He hates me for what I did to him. And sometimes, I think about cutting. I ask myself “Why would you do this to yourself?” Then I remember & reply back “Because I deserve it”. I really do.


But recently, there is this guy… He goes to another school. But will go to the High School I’m going to go to next year. He is so sweet, and amazing. He plays Baseball, football, & runs track. What makes him really special is that he doesn’t know I like him & we are bestfriends. Isn’t nice to fall for your best friend? That’s what every girl dreams of, am I right?
Well, I just thought I’d let all my feelings out on here for anyone who is up. Because its 12:22 here in Texas.

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